My day for 3.26.07

1. Tender, fun, affectionate
2. Nunc scio quit sit amor.
3. Uh. I can't think of a question. So just state something random about yourself.
I eat skittles in a certain order. Yellow, orange (their places may be switched), green, purple, red.

My day for 3.19.07

1. Uneventful, upsetting, art-block.
2. We have just enough religion to make us hate, but not enough to make us love one another. - Jonathan Swift
3. Do you look at yourself in a negative way, or in a positive way?

I usually look at myself in a negative way when it comes to personality... It's only once in a while that I feel really, really good about myself... But in a positive way when it comes to my stunning, dazzling beauty, unless my hair looks lame or I'm wearing my glasses. Ew :P

My day for 3.17.07

1. My day was: Short, unproductive, but not bad
2. Quote: "You cannot escape the responsibility of tomorrow by evading it today" - Abraham Lincoln
3. Question: Would you rather have everything given to you, and you didn't have to work for anything, or would you prefer having to do the work, very difficult yourself?

I'd actually prefer doing the work. Whenever I finish homework, I feel accomplished. Sure, the act of doing homework or work is no fun at all, but I feel proud when I'm finished!

Question yourself

I apologize for the funky format of the text and stuff. I can't fix it.I
've randomly decided that almost every day I will update my blog with 3 things, and three things only. I'll keep doing this for a few weeks, until I get bored.

1. My day summed up in a few emotions
I can always elaborate if I want to, you can't stop me! :P
2. A quote
Oh ho ho, how Criminal Minds inspires me so.
3. And a question
This question is important, and I'll answer it myself, truthfully. And then I hope you will answer it truthfully as well... and seriously.

1. Lonely, Stressful, Insecure
2. "No one is listening until you make a mistake." - Anonymous
3. Has your life ever been changed by an apparently random occurrence?
Yes, but it wasn't a very big change. It never seems to be, but the smallest thing can be the foundation for a long drama or problem or issue in my life.

Buy one stereotype, get one free!

Take this, I demand you to!

If you wanna take it, bold the ones you are. Add more if you feel like you should.

I look EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat. [I'm slightly religious]
I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.
I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I'm JAMICAN so I must smoke weed.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay. [I think I'm liberal, I'm not exactly sure what it means]
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a stuck up whore.
I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I wear skirts a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a big peter.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.
I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a whore.
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool.
I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO.
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.
I'm a STONER, so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.
I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon and fried chicken.
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST have a small penis.
I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm PREP, so I MUST be rich.
I don't like the SUN so I MUST be albino.
I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.
I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.
I couldn't hurt a FLY, So I MUST be a pussy.
I support GAY RIGHTS, so I MUST fit in with everyone.
I hang out with teenaged drinkers and smokers, so I MUST smoke and drink too.
I'm CHRISTIAN, so I MUST hate gay people.
I have ARTISTIC TALENT, so I MUST think little of those who don't.
I don't like to be in a BIG GROUP, so I MUST be anti-social.
I have a DIFFERENT sense of HUMOR, so I MUST be crazy.
I tell people OFF, so I MUST be an overcontrolling bitch.
My hair gets GREASY alot, so I MUST have no hygiene skills.
I'm DEFENSIVE, so I MUST be overcontrolling and a bitch.
I'm a NUDIST, so I MUST want everyone to see my boobs.
I read Comics, so I MUST be a loser.
I hang out with a FORMER PROSTITUTE.. so I MUST be a whore myself.
I'm TEXAN so I MUST ride a horse.
I’m a GOTH, so I MUST be a Satanist.
I’m a CROSSDRESSER, so I Must be homosexual.
I draw ANIME so I MUST be a freak.
I am a FANGIRL so I MUST be a crazy, obsessed stalker.
I WATCH PORN so I MUST be perverted.
I'm an ONLY CHILD so I MUST be spoiled.
I'm INTELLIGENT so I MUST be weak.
I am AMERICAN so I MUST be an obese, loud-mouthed and arrogant.
I'm WELSH so I MUST love sheep.
I’m a YOUNG WRITER, so I MUST be emo.
I’m CANADIAN, so I MUST talk with a funny accent.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST ditch my pregnant girlfriend.
I'm CANADIAN, so I MUST love hockey and beavers.
I'm DISABLED, so I MUST be on Welfare.
I'm a FEMINIST, so I MUST have a problem with sexuality and I want to castrate every man on the earth.
I'm a TEENAGER, so I MUST have a STEREOTYPE.
I WEAR A BIG SUNHAT when I go outside, so I MUST be stupid.
I like BLOOD, so I must be a VAMPIRE.
I'm ALBINO, so I MUST be an evil person with mental abilities and is A MURDERER!
I'm ENGLISH, so I MUST speak with either a cockney or a posh accent, love tea and cricket, and have bad teeth.
I’m WHITE, so I MUST be responsible for everything going wrong on the planet: past, present, and future.
I don't like YAOI or YURI, so I must be a HOMOPHOBE.
I’m not the most POPULAR person in school, so I MUST be a loser.
I care about the ENVIRONMENT...I MUST be a tree hugging hippie.
I have a FAN CHARACTER, so it MUST be an annoying Mary-sue.
I CHAT, so I MUST be having cyber sex.
I'm PAGAN so I MUST sacrifice babies and drink the blood of virgins.
I'm PAGAN so I MUST worship Satan.
I'm CONSERVATIVE, so I MUST be against Abortion.
I'm SWEDISH so I MUST be a tall blonde blue-eyed lesbian.
I'm a LESBIAN so I MUST want to get with every single girl that I see.
I like CARTOONS, so I MUST be IRRESPONSIBLE.
I like READING, so I MUST be a LONER.
I have my OWN spiritual ideology; therefore I MUST be WRONG or MISGUIDED.
I am WICCAN, so I MUST be a SATANIST.
I DISAGREE with my government, so I MUST be a TERRORIST.
I am a WITCH, so I MUST be and OLD HAG and fly on a broomstick.
I love YAOI, so I MUST be GAY.
I'm a PERSON, so I MUST be LABELED.
I DON'T CURSE, so I MUST be an outcast.
I like GAMES, ANIME and COMICS, so I MUST be childish.
I'm SWEDISH, therefore I MUST be WHITE.
I SPOT GRAMMATICAL ERRORS, so I MUST be a pendantic bastard.
I'm GOTHIC, so I MUST be mean.
I’m STRONG so I MUST be stupid.
I'm Australian so I MUST hunt crocodiles and talk to kangaroos.
I go to RENFAIRES, so I MUST talk weird, be a loser, and not be up with the times.
I’m GAY so I’m after EVERY straight guy around.
I don’t want a BOYFRIEND so I MUST be Lesbian.
I'm NOT CHRISTIAN so I MUST just need converting.
I love marching bands, so I MUST be a friendless freak.
I DRINK and SMOKE, so I MUST have no life.
I HATE RAP music so I MUST not fit in.
I move around ALOT so I MUST not fit in anywhere.
I call my friends GOOD LOOKING so I MUST be Lesbian.
I've NEVER been kissed so I MUST not be good enough.
I'm a GUY so I MUST want sex ALL THE TIME.
I'm a CHRISTIAN so I MUST not listen to GOOD MUSIC.

Again, I think you peeps should take it. It's fun.

i find it pathetic

that I remain frustrated even when I know better.

I am just so stubborn that I will not change my frustration even when I can. I don't like being frustrated. Everything pisses me off. Like right now.
My hair is making me mad, I can't get it to stop bothering me. My chair is uncomfortable because I am wedged in the corner typing on the computer (my computer room is set up weird). My arm hurts. My mom wants to watch Heroes, I want to watch Criminal Minds. My QtAP sucked. I had a bad day (never mind that the whole day I was actually happy, but now I am frustrated I've had a bad day allll day somehow). I don't want to talk to anyone (though not an issue, nobody really talks to me over IM anyways)
see? I am just one big carbon-based life form that is filled with complaints. It's me me me me me me me when I'm frustrated. I could just suck it up and listen to some happy music. Or tell myself that this is all in my head and I'm being ridiculous. I do tell myself I am being ridiculous but even if I know I am I still do nothing to fix that! Argh! I'm not often mad at other people.
It may start out that way, but it always weaves itself back to me (either showing I am an egoist or an egoist with low self-esteem). And I really wish it didn't. Because I feel so weird and I feel that the world is out to get me, they're all in a plan to ruin my day.
Sam isn't though. She's my friend. I love her. She lets me be a therapist to my own self. I could just be a therapist to my own self when I'm alone, but I just have to say these things for them to actually have an effect.
Niki, however, no. She likes hurting me, apparently. She thinks it's funny when I'm mad. No. I am not funny when I am mad. I am a brat when I am mad. I can't believe her. That she is now actually pushing me on purpose to make me react so she can laugh because it's funny. Makes me sad. Niki was a really nice person. I don't know what has changed her.
Past few days I've been reliving memories that I regret. Like last year. I was all emo. Or goth. (I hate stereotypes, nother story for nother time) And then Jeff, and Bubba, telling me they thought I was a freak last year? That I scared them? I hate it when people think of me that way. I want people to like me. It breaks my heart to know that people, even people I don't really like either, don't like me. Or didn't.
Waaaaaa... Why can't I be some brainless 8th grader who really isn't bothered by this kind of stuff? Who doesn't think? Just some stupid person... Ignorant?! I don't want to be ignorant, but thinking's pretty bad as well.
(I would never actually prefer ignorance over maturity. But it must be easy being ignorant, ignorance is bliss)

/rant

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